Here we go

This week has been full of emotions.  Wednesday Jordan and I went to the doctor for our follicle measuring appointment.  My follicles were not measuring large enough. They beloved that we were just a couple days early. We scheduled another appointment for Friday. My follicles had grown and were large enough to do the trigger shot. Today we are doing our 5th IUI (3rd with this doctor).  Going through another IUI we are filled with the normal emotions as we had for the other ones, but we also have some more this time.  Jordan and I have decided that if this IUI doesn't work we will be taking a break for a while.  We have been through several IUIs and with that comes a lot of emotions and a lot of expenses.  The whole process has become draining on both of our emotions and our finances.  We have enjoyed the journey we have been on and all the learning experiences we have had.  We don't want people to think we are giving up but we know that right now we just can't go through any more.

So as we go into today and the next two weeks I ask that you keep us in your prayers.  We would love for this time to work and not have to worry about taking a break.  We would love to be able to report back to you in two weeks that we are pregnant.  We know that the chance is still there for it not to work and that we may have a longer wait ahead of us.  Pray that we have the patience we need to make it through the wait.

Dealing with infertility is hard.  It's hard to explain to others what you are feeling and for them to sympathize with you if they haven't experienced it themselves.  I want to share this quote that someone else had posted on Facebook to help a little.  "Infertility is a loss.  It's the loss of a dream.  It's the loss of an assumed future.  And, like every loss, it will be grieved."