The Next Step

I've been struggling with the start of this post.  I type something then delete it, and repeat.  For the past three weeks I have been wanting to post and think about what I want to say.  So now that I sit here to type it everything is trying to come out at once...and I never said I was a good writer!!  Jordan and I celebrated our anniversary this past month and were reminded how lucky we are to have each other.  Through this past year we have been through a lot of trials that only helped us grow stronger together.  We love every moment we have together.  I also turned 30 in March!  It was a bittersweet day.  I hear all these people say that their 30s are their best years, but I'm entering them still childless.  I know there are a lot of couples that don't have kids until after 30 but growing up that is never what I had envisioned and it was hard.
Since talking a break from infertility doctors and treatments Jordan and I have done a lot of praying and talking.  We begin doing some research on adoption and seeing how that may fit into our lives.  Our hearts were being changed and God was leading us down a different path.  We have now met with two different adoption agencies and decided this is for us!  We are so very excited to announce we are in the beginning steps of adopting!!  As I sat listening to them tell stories about birth mothers and what they had been through, or stories of the adoptive parents getting the child they had so desperately been waiting for, I started seeing Jordan and I standing there in the hospital holding our own precious new baby.  It finally hit me that I can still be a mom and God will still fulfill the desires of my heart.  So as we embark on this new exciting journey we are asking for your help.  There are many expenses that come along with adoption.  So if you feel it in your heart to help us out in any way you can just head on over here!  Please know that we will be forever grateful for anything you can do.  So cheers to The Kesners + 1!