There has been a little more time pass since my last post. If you pay attention to the time lines and how long it has been since the last post then you know something had to happen. Well, something did. When I talked to the nurse about going through our second round of IUI with them we didn't set the appointment for our ultrasound like we did the time before. I just went along taking my medicine and tracking my days. We also spent that next week on vacation so my mind was on vacation too and not thinking about going back to the doctor. When I finally realized it was getting close to the day I should have my ultrasound I called my nurse. She was on vacation too! When we were finally able to talk it was already day 12 (which is when they like to do the ultrasound) so she said we had to do it the next day. It felt like we had been thrown into a whirlwind. I had to make sure I could get off work and have everything taken care of. We had to pack since we stay overnight in Indy. We had to line someone up to watch over our precious Otis. And we told just our immediate family. We decided that since we had not told anyone but family we were going to leave it that way until the two week wait was over. When other family or friends asked we just said we were in a waiting period. On August 5th we went for the ultrasound. I had a large measuring follicle on both ovaries so the nurse was very pleased and said we would be able to do the IUI the next day. I had my progesterone shot and we were sent on our way. The next morning we went in with very high spirits. Everything looked good for Jordan and the IUI went well. Later that day I was able to share with the nurse my progesterone levels from the tried IUI before. With the levels that I had so said I would need to take a supplement to help raise my levels of progesterone in order for me to actually conceive. Today marked the end of the two week wait. Jordan and I have been so excited to do the pregnancy test. We felt more confident about this one and couldn't wait. Unfortunately I only got 1 line. It is amazing to me how your spirits can be crushed from that one line. You sit looking, thinking maybe the second line just takes longer to appear. You walk away and come back, thinking maybe it changed and there is a second line now. The second line never showed up.
We will go on. We will try one more IUI before we do something else. We will continue to enjoy the time we get with just the two of us (and Otis). We will keep praying and trusting that God has his hand in this. We will be strong for each other. We will live each day to its fullest. Something I have come to realize even more over this last month is to enjoy every single moment of every single day. Live life and spend time with those you love. We will do just that.
Jordan and I have been doing a devotional together from a book entitled "Moments for Couples Who Long for Children." I want to leave you with a verse that I have heard many times before but in this situation I have been clinging to.
"The Lord himself goes before you and will be with you; he will never leave you nor forsake you. Do not be afraid; do not be discouraged." -Deuteronomy 31:8
